Sunshine of your Love

i remember the days up to proposal..
I remember sitting with Tom on a wooden bench in the middle of a park after an afternoon spent roaming around a small hawiian town. the sun was beating down on us as we hurryied to finish our icecream cones before they were a puddle benethe our feet. the wind blew gently through our hair, giving us a relief from the arid enviroment. days like these are common in hawii. the park over looked the ocean. in my mind, i thought this would be the perfect setting for a wedding. "tom, dont you think today would be the ideal day for a wedding?" i pointed to the dock. a platform of wood planks that layed a great distance from the shore. a trail of finely sculpted wood fencing lined the edges. rows of flowers were planted upon the top of the fencing. "uh.. a-wedding? i uh- sure." tom sounded nervous. he acted as if the mention of a "wedding" was forbiden. "tom, are you okay?" his cheeks turned a light shade of pink, almost identical to the strawberry icecream he was consuming. "yeah, i uh- i'm fine. i'm rosey as a matter of fact." tom failed to reasure me that he was okay. "i mean, look at that dock! it's beautiful! that would be the perfect place for a wedding. dont you agree?" tom started to tense up. "uh-yeah." in my mind, i started imagining the lucky couple who's wedding would take place on the dock. then, i began questioning my realationship with tom. i have been with tom for four years. we should have been married by now. what was he waiting for? doesn't he love me? "kayla, dont you think its time to go home?" i snapped out of my day dream "hmm? oh- yeah."
The following day, tom and i were sitting on the pourch of our beach house. we watched the waves roll onto the shore then flow back into the ocean. "how long would you say we have been together?" tom asked me. "about four years." i awnsered. "long time, huh?" tom didn't look at me when he spoke. he starred down at his hands. his fingers, fidgiting with the button on his shirt, shook with nervousness. what is happening with tom? he gets so nervous..
Upon the next day, i was walking into the kitchen when i saw tom sitting at the table with his hands in his pockets. "good morning, tom" i said, sitting next to him. he didn't reply instantly "tom?" "kayla, i've been thinking a lot of how i should do this... and, i think the best way to do this, would be in our house, a place that we have both cheristed and created..." i didn't understand what he was talking about. "you know- i love you, insanly." he took his hand out of his pocket, holding a small velvet box. "will- kayla, will you marry me?" i remained speachless. not only was i suprised, but just last week i had my heart broken by fred. i didn't know if tom was proposing to keep me away from fred. i didn't think tom would ever propose- exspeically after i through a fit when fred broke up with me and i ran back to him. "tom.."
here i am today, a year later in november, married to tom. i'm still having problems with fred, and i'm still in love with tom.